To Sell or Not To Sell

That is the question.

We have made a promise to each other and ultimately to God that we would not borrow money for a car. I mean we never sat down and said to each other or God I promise I will never borrow money for a car, but it was very implied. When I returned from Afghanistan and we sold the car I really thought, we can do this, we can have one vehicle. Then as I always do I started browsing the internet looking for that perfect deal. I found it, we did it, and now we feel horrible. The perfect deal should have involved cash, but we did not do that.

I feel as I post these things on here that my feelings are somewhat bi-polar. You know, I can feel one way one day and be certain, then in the flash of a light I am on the other side of the fence. The goal is to be debt free and only borrow money for a house. We have no need to buy a house right now, so that is really not even in the question.

This goes even beyond logic. Let me tell you why... Logically you can make just about make anything make sense. You can rationalize things to death and then in some twisted crazy way they all make sense. I do not care about logic. Logically we are very successful. I have a great career, I have a good retirement with this company. I can retire early enough to build a solid second career. I am on pace to be debt free by the time I am 35 years old and we have wonderful family relationships. (with extended family as well as immediate family) We are blessed beyond measure.

But,

You knew there was going to be a but right?

But, we are uneasy about our selves because we just borrowed money to buy a car. All be it a used car well within our means, but we borrowed. Cars are my weakness. Everyone has a weakness, cars are mine. I love them. I really love them. I work on them at work, I clean them at home, I love driving anything that has wheels, I love the sounds, smells, and feel of cars. ESPECIALLY trucks. I wish this was not the case, and if I can get it under control I think we will make money with cars some day. I want to restore old cars and sell them. But that is another story.

We must live like no one else so we can live like no one else. We must give like no one else so we can give like no one else.

If God would have us keep the Tahoe we will, but if he wants us to sell it then we shall and I pray he would let someone buy it NOW.

God is far greater and more powerful than the box I tend to put him in.

Wisdom is the prayer request.